Today is the 5th day of the 5th month… 5, is a prime number. In radio communication, the term ” Five by Five” is used to indicate perfect signal strength and clarity. “Give me five” is a common phrase used preceding a ‘High Five”. The numerology number 5 is a number that expresses its sense of personal freedom. 5 is sensual, sensing life and its various intensities and vibrations as it flows through 5’s essence. 5 experiences by observing and feeling and interacting with full focus. A person with a 5 in a prominent position generally is comfortable interacting with others.
Number 5 represents a composite energy containing the ideas of:
Expression of Personal Freedom
I think I like the number 5!
May is a month of spring in the Northern Hemisphere and autumn in the Southern Hemisphere. May acts as the bridge between spring and summer, hinting at warmer weather for those still stuck in spring’s grasp, while heating things up for those already well on their way. April showers bring May flowers, new loves and beautiful weather. The Sun is warming, the birds are chirping, the flowers are blooming, and the garden is growing.
The month of May was named for the Greek goddess Maia. She was the goddess of fertility. The Romans had a similar goddess named Bona Dea. In spring, ones’ libido seems to come alive with the new season. May’s birth flowers are the Hawthorn and the Lily-of-the-Valley. The hawthorn means hope, while the lily-of-the-valley symbolizes sweetness or the return of happiness.
I think I like the month of May!
May you find hope and happiness in all that you do each and every day of MAY!!!
Well once again I found myself having to step back from Virtual World fun. Maybe I dove in way too deep, which is my nature, and here almost 10 months later I found myself needing to step back.
In Second Life, the Wild West role play really took a lot of time out of my week, planning for the lessons for the Little Red School two mornings a week two hours long. I also tried to join in the evening Campfire gatherings and tried not to miss the OOC Thursday night dances. And I also tried to attend the Saturday evening Cherokee gathering in our little town of Bear River. After almost a year there I still feel like a stranger. Then there is my Indian maiden/warrior role play. Monday Pow Wows, Wednesday combat training with our friendly tribe brothers, the Osage, Friday combat with the Outlaws and then Sunday morning Storytelling Hour (which I lead) and which took extra time for me to prepare to make sure the topic and stories were interesting and well presented. AND then there is returning to OpenSim and my beloved AAcme City trying to restore it to a more completed and workable city. It is a HUGE project. Plus I started to take a class to learn how to do mesh.
I’ve been doing all of the above trying to escape my Real Life role: being a caretaker for a terminal ill advanced stage IV Cancer patient. It’s taken it’s toll on me watching my husband decline in health and weight and mental capacities (mostly due to the high dosage of morphine he’s given) while still wanting to be a Mother and friend to my grown children, one whom recently took the hardest step of her life, finally leaving an abusive husband and moving half way across the country to get away from him with her four children. I miss her and my Grandchildren so much.
It’s all become so overwhelming to me. I realize my first and top priority is taking care of my husband, still I yearn to jump into that fantasy world of beautiful people and where one can fly and do the impossible.
There is one thing I forgot about in Virtual Worlds in my eagerness to return. The drama, the relationships to juggle and the many personalities one must deal with. Sometimes drama happens to you and you don’t even realize it until you are knee deep in yuck! Sometimes your feelings get away from you and you feel your heart begin to beat to a different drummer. Sometimes you feel so alone and wonder why others seem to be so accepted and loved and always part of the ‘in crowd’ while you watch from the sidelines. Sometimes you feel used and sought after not for your heart but for your abilities. Of course we still are real people with real feelings behind the facade of a beautiful avatar but you wish to think “this is a different fun life”, while you mask your private despair. Self doubt sets in whether it’s reality or virtual. You can not fly away from being a human!
Finally, the pain has gone back into it’s hiding place, although every once in a while if I move wrong or twist wrong it rears it’s ugly head and shouts at me! I’m shouting back now and moving on. Smiles.
It’s a strange feeling not to go on-line daily and interact with your friends and foes. Especially when it’s what you do daily and have for the last eight months, almost every morning without a pause. You lie there wondering who is planning what, who is missing you, who hasn’t even noticed you’ve been gone? You want so badly to log in and shout “Here I am!! See me!!”. You’re nervous about going back like you’re now a stranger to everyone or you don’t know what to say or do when you run into another. It’s like you’re a newbie all over again.
You ponder your character and wonder if you are playing the correct role for you. Are you helping others enjoy the second life they have carved out for themselves? Is it worth the time and energy you put into your character and the planning and execution of your plans? Are you spending too much real life cash on clothes and looks for your character? Are you spending too little? Where will you be say six months from now, one year from now? So much to think about while lying on your back pondering your second life!
I want to run wild again! I want to enjoy my second life! I want to enjoy my friends! I want to be part of the ‘in-crowd’! Things change so quickly in second life. Once I read that four hours of second life time equals a full day of real life time. So it’s like I’ve been away for four plus months, not three weeks. I got a lot of living to make up for! Let’s do this… see ya on the inside!
Why, oh why do we do such silly things? At my age I should of known better. It was a stupid stupid thing to do! I feel like it will never heal and I am getting so depressed from not being able to escape to my fun, no harm can find me virtual worlds. I miss my friends. Thank goodness a few have my rl phone number and have called to lift my spirits and see how I am doing. Although it’s only been a couple weeks in real life time, in a virtual life that it’s like a few months time have passed. The gears of time continue to move, even if I do not.
The measurement of time began with the invention of sundials in ancient Egypt, some time prior to 1500 B.C.
Pain is a distressing feeling often caused by intense or damaging stimuli… pain is described as “an unpleasant sensory and emotional experience associated with, or resembling that associated with, actual or potential tissue damage. It is a major symptom in many medical conditions, and can interfere with a person’s quality of life and general functioning. I have been ‘in pain’ for the last couple of weeks.
For some reason I thought I was Superwoman and lifted up my insanely heavy large maple desk. I was rearranging my living room and the second I lifted my desk I felt a muscle in my back stretch and pop… ouch!! Still I continued to work and then later that evening sat at my new turned desk for hours enjoying my Virtual life. The next day, I couldn’t get out of bed. UGH
I plan to be much more careful in the future. I truly do. Pain is NO fun! Please be careful my friends. It only takes a second to knock you out of the game! (pun intended)
“Songs express who we are and how we feel, they bring us closer to others, they keep us company when we are alone. They articulate our beliefs and values, and they bear witness to our lives. Songs weave tales of our joys and sorrows, they reveal our innermost secrets, and they express our hopes and disappointments, our fears and triumphs. They are our musical diaries, our life stories. They are the sounds of our personal development”.
NEW year new goals. One new year’s resolution was to have more music in my life! I tried to visit youtube, or iHeart or my vid stream on Facebook and listen to new and old songs each morning! As I drink my coffee and consider the day and reflect on yesterday the music soothes my soul. I don’t know about you but I have always loved music! I was in the church choir as a youth and even though I don’t think my voice was that of a singer I belted out the songs with all my heart.
As I got older vinyl records became my obsession. I had one of the those little portable suitcase looking record player and would carry it around with me to my friends houses. I recalled my neighbor and close girlfriend who lived across the street from me, we once listened to a new Elvis song over and over and over and over and over and over and over again. Laughing at the memory.
My mother use to stop by the record store on her way home from work sometimes and pick up a bundle of 45’s that were on the sale rack and bring them home to me. Some were very weird songs! But sometimes, I would discover a Song that touched my heart and soul and to this day I still hear the tune play in my head. One was called the Trumpeter’s Prayer… an instrumental that a wild teenager like me would never buy on her own.
As I got older and the internet came out I joined many music sites. Some were very erotic where we would talk to other members through song titles. Mmmmmmmmmmmm. Then I found Second Life where music and dancing was the highpoint of my second life. Live concerts from so many genres to choose from. Getting to know these folks from around the world and learn of their musical talents. Dj’s who played a variety of music while our avatars bantered and danced and had the time of our life.
Music, let it carry to you to new places. Let it fill up your heart and soar your soul. Some say music is therapy that perhaps provide a small window into what makes it so special and magical! Listen to the music as you dance your way through this journey we call our life. “Where words fail, music speaks.”.
My fairy soul stands in the middle of an old western stone cabin ready to fly to the OOC party to dance and laugh with her many friends, old and new, all virtual. It feels so real. I feel so alive when inside this pixelated world and I forget all about my real life world problems: Covid 19, Our divisive America, a husband with an incurable Cancer disease chipping away at his life: if only for a few hours.
Sometimes I feel guilty that I escape my first life, to live a second life, other times I feel elated to be able to maneuver through a virtual maze with ease and grace. Sometimes I don’t want to leave my safe virtual world where no physical harm can touch me, where everyone is beautiful to look at, where I can fly. Other times I scold myself for having fun while my husband lies on his couch withering away.
In this pixelated world I have many friends. In my real world I have a few close friends. But since ‘social distancing’ I have not seen my close friends. In my pixelated world I hug and kiss my many friends without a thought. I do know that behind each avatar there is a ‘real’ person escaping their own life issues or perhaps they are just enjoying playing dress up and have no issues. I can’t really say.
I do know this, without my pixelated world to immerse myself in, I would likely fall into a deep depression and not make up my bed in the morning. I wouldn’t do my chores or be the gentle caretaker I must be each day for my husband. So I will dive into this pixelated world once again today fully immersing my heart and soul in a make believe world where life is beautiful and I take a deep breath of life in my virtual fantasy.
Dances on Water is the Native American name for Mimzy Runningbear, my Second Life Avatar role player on the BL Borderlands sims. Mimzy has lived with the Apaches her whole life. She is half Choctaw (my real life Indian heritage) and half Apache. Her parents died when she was ten summers young and the Elder Tama took her in, raised her, of course with the help of the whole tribe. She is now 20 summers old and recently became a fierce Warrior like her Father. She also is training to become a Healer like her Mother. The tribe loves to play music, dance and have fun with horse races, canoe races and raiding the white man’s town or camps taking prisoners when they can. There are many Outlaw gangs who often raid the Apache pueblo and cause much bloodshed and chaos. Mimzy loves her life and all her sisters and brothers!
The avatar adventures of Sunbeam Magic includes many Suns. Before I came and immersed myself in OpenSim I had many (many) alts. At one time in Second Life I think I counted a total of 25 *LOL*… many were used for Roleplay as for a couple years AAcme and I were totally into RP. Others were made to ‘re-create’ ourselves as many times we tried to “quit” the world and vowed never to come back. It seemed to be taking over our real life time and emotions ran high at times over silly incidents. After over a decade since we first discovered virtual worlds now I can not even remember the whys or what for regarding the high emotions!
One (out of 3 or 4) of my FREEBIE shops @Nara’s Nook
When we first went to an OpenSim grid (3rdRock and InWorldz) we made new avatars for new names and jumped in with both feet, socializing, becoming an Events Manager, building, creating, opening shops, managing others’ regions, Mentoring, joining Admin teams… you name it we tried it! Then we found other grids as they popped up and before HG you had to join them to see them. So as the years went on I became a member of over a dozen grids. Some (most) still have my original avatar on file, even if I have not logged into that particular grid in over a year. Amazing! I did decide after roaming away from the closed grids to always be ‘Sunbeam Magic’. IT goes back to my grass roots, as when I first joined Second Life, the legacy grid, I started as ‘Sunbeam’ Jewell… changed to Magic as surname because I feel these worlds are MAGICAL!
Below are a few of the profile shots from the many grids I am a member of:
Great Candian Grid 4-13-2015
Island Oasis 3-08-2012
Lost Paradise 11-19-2012
Nara’s Nook 11-11-2014
3rdLife Grid 1-14-2016
3rdRock Grid 12-18-2010
I’m sure I have other Sun’s out there… SimValley, Discovery, Zetaworlds, The Adult Grid, Virtual Highway ring a bell! But forgot the passwords and couldn’t get my Profile pic to show you my dear friends. So I’m stuck with only 13 images to preserve and record for future prosperity. Plus I did not include any of my still alive and breathing avatars in Second Life (about 3 or 4 or them I believe). Anyways, thanks for joining me in my trip down Avatar Lane!
As Always, Step in Sunshine, Be Happy and enjoy your lifes!
Sunbeam took some TIME off from blogging in the year 2016. A lot of TIME off! A whole year of TIME off ! NOW she’s ready to start anew. 2016 was so full of lots of fun in OpenSim: special projects, special builds, HG VISIONZ magazine, many changes and much more she was involved with there just wasn’t any TIME left for blogging.
Anything and everything under the ‘Sun’ is fair game. We decided to revamp the way we do our blog for 2017. Instead of 50+ images showing her travels and friends and what she’s was up to in the OpenSim Metaverse each month, we choose NOW a simpler life, a simpler blog focusing on one subject at a TIME. We may blog on thoughts, on a word (or two or three), on an OS destination, on an OS event, on a friend, or an enemy, or a spirit. The main objective is to K.I.S.S. my blog (Keep it Short and Simple).
TIME is the word for today’s blog.
TIME: noun> “the indefinite continued progress of existence and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole”.
TIME: verb> “plan, schedule, or arrange when (something) should happen or be done”.
TIME is that one thing one never has enough to do all they want to do. We must use the verb TIME to make the noun TIME fulfil our dreams and visionz. As most everyone knows, the best laid plans of Fairies and humans often go awry. Things often go wrong even though you have carefully planned what you are going to do. With that said our new 2017 mottos shall be: ‘Go with the Flow’ and have a ‘Devil may care’ attitude and with thoughts like those TIME will always be on my side! I’m gonna ‘live in the moment’!!!
In closing I’d like to say “Happy New Year! Have fun, enjoy life and may 2017 be your best year ever!” Step in Sunshine
December has so many facets; A) End-of-the-Year month B) Winter Solstice month C) Christmas Day. All Delightful! End-of-the-Year conjures up hope for a better tomorrow and an exciting future. Winter Solstice brings sparkle and beauty to our world, all bright, white and positive. And Christmas Day bringing family and friends closer oozing love and unselfishly sharing our hearts and humanity, true and giving. We believe the Magic of Giving indeed brings happiness to all.
Sunbeam was so busy in this month of December 2015 she took over 200 photographs: building her Happy Holidays area at AAcme City, GCG, attending various HG tours, attended OSCC, began Mentoring at GCG, going to fab Winter/Christmas parties including a Masquerade Ball, where Sun won 2nd Place in Theme Dress contest, joining in on two ‘Treasure Hunts’ (Tangle HG Hunt and GCG Winter Hunt) and chillin’ with friends and family! Of course we didn’t post all 200, lol, but do hope you enjoy our Delightful December Slideshow below. Enjoy ! Smiles!
YAY 2016 is here. Happy New Year to ALL! and after much reflection and thought about Metaverse Magic, the virtual adventures Sunbeam has experienced over the last three years, we have decided its time for a change. A change to our format for 2016. After reading a post by Selby Evans on blogging “Keep it Simple” Google +, that is exactly what we intend to try and do. Instead of cramming a whole month of her adventures into one post, we will do a Simple Post detailing one event or activity at a time. Hopefully blogging a few time per month. Smiles!
As always my valued friends, and soon to be friends, thank you for visiting my Metaverse Magic and Step in Sunshine!
Obsessed by a fairy tale, we spend our lives searching for a magic door and a lost kingdom of peace. Eugene O’Neill