nDn Myths and Legends

Every other Sunday, around Noon SLT (Second Life Time) I conduct an event at my Native American role play sims, BL Borderlands. It is the highlight of my existence inworld. Being part Choctaw Indian in real life it means the world to me to carry on the tradition of “Story Telling”. For Native Americans, the telling of stories passed down from generation to generation remained their primary form of wisdom communication even after the written word had spread across the globe. Native American oral storytelling traditions allowed tribes to transmit their mythological, spiritual and historical understandings of themselves and the worlds they inhabited to their children and their children’s children. This all but guaranteed that members of each individual nation would never forget their roots or lose sight of important knowledge that would allow them to continue to exist in harmony and cooperation with the natural world.

In order to make this critical information memorable, Native Americans translated practical prescriptions along with subtle and sophisticated ideas about the Great Mystery of life and existence into allegories filled with heroes and villains, comedic twists and dramatic encounters and lessons learned the hard way through suffering and eventual transcendence.

I research online and find different subjects to discuss and then find different stories that go with the subject to tell the tribal members and friends of the tribe that attend. I do not just tell of one tribe’s myth or legend but include all tribes (there are over 550 Indigenous Nations currently in the United States) that seem pertinent to my chosen subject. It’s amazing to me how many stories are similar coming from the different tribes but also so very different. One thing they all have in common is they leave you with a moral lesson to ponder for days on end.

Through storytelling, Native American tribes shared, preserved, and paid tribute to their early beginnings, so future generations could continue their legacy. With so many viewpoints and creative ideals from the varied tribes, the unique facets of these people are shared and explored by listening to their stories. By exploring these stories, we are able to glimpse into the past, while carrying the ideals, thoughts and beliefs of a nation into the future.

May your life be like a wildflower, growing freely in the beauty and joy of each day. Step in Sunbeams!


I’ve been a virtual world participant for about 15 years now. I love the feeling of operating my avatars as they roam around the fantastic world on pixels and viewing the most interesting unique environments. Fantasy, history, modern, futuristic worlds of every imagination brought to pixel life. But the best part… (to me) is meeting other avatars! From all around the globe. It makes me feel like a ‘international jet set’ person!

I have virtual friends in so many different countries, like the United Kingdom, Ireland, Denmark, Switzerland, Germany, France, Belgium, Italy, India, Canada, and from almost every state of the USA. Most speak English, or text English, and if they don’t we have this handy little gadget called a ‘translator’ that will automatically translate any language into English. OMG… sometimes the translations are so funny! and not even close to what we were trying to say to each other, but all in all we can communicate.

It takes a certain personality to learn the ends and outs of a virtual world. How to operate your avatar, how to dress your avatar, how to get from one place to another, how to dance, how to voice and if you are into a more ‘gaming’ like experience, how to operate the combat tools and vehicles available to use. We all like to joke too about how you have got to be “a little bit crazy” to immerse yourself in these virtual worlds. Recently one of my friends said “Lol… they are all fucking crazy!” when we were discussing a recent drama story boiling over and each drama Queen was trying to explain their action and words to us (Admins of the sim).

To me the one biggest drawback in virtual worlds is the LAG. Sometimes when you try to move you freeze up, then a second later you are across the sim not even close to where you wanted to go or you might find yourself in the virtual void tumbling over and over as you fall to nowheres-ville. Sometimes your screen will turn completely black and you see nothing, hear nothing, and can do nothing! It can get quite frustrating especially if you are in the middle of roleplay storyline and others are counting on you.

All in all these worlds still amaze me that they work as well as they do considering there are millions of avatars running around and enjoying their virtual lives. I believe I’ve made lifelong friends and each morning when I awake I wonder what and who I will see that day. I have a warm fuzzy feeling and can hardly wait to jump out of bed and see what’s going on in my virtual worlds and with my virtual friends. Lag or no lag… I’m logging in!

Summer time Fun!


… is hard to maintain and find. Life has its own rules, it’s complicated and not the same for everyone. Being human we are so very complex and complicated. Each human is unique and looks at their world at a slightly different angle than their fellow humans. Some try very hard to understand the other’s point of view, but deep down they truly do not. What is a simple life, appreciating the little things and practicing gratitude. …embracing the white space. Does kindness play a part in a simple life? Can you enjoy a simple life and have interaction with other humans simultaneously?

In the virtual world called Second Life, relationships form more quickly, feelings seem more intense, life looks beautiful there, but not all is glitter and beauty. Drama rears it’s ugly head and grows as big as a Dragon with just one word or look. You can step into drama and not even know it is stuck on your shoe like stepping on a piece of chewing gum on the sidewalk. You didn’t even see it! You continue walking through your life with gum on your shoe.

Often, a ‘simple life’ refers to a manner of living in which a person does not own many things or use many modern machines and usually lives in the countryside: He lives in a small cabin and enjoys the simple life. In Second Life, one can own a million items and gadgets, one uses all the modern techniques they can operate and one can live in luxury and beauty with whatever environment they choose, a beach, a forest, a mountain top or on the moon or under the sea.

Life is not easy for anyone. Sometimes you don’t see the challenges on the outside, but every single one of us has those and everything that goes on inside as well. I have come to the conclusion, that in Second Life one can not enjoy the simple life if they also want to have friends and lovers. Nothing is simple in Second Life!

Drama Dragon Wrapping Around You


TeddyBear HUG

We hug others when we’re excited, happy, sad, or trying to comfort. Hugging, it seems, is universally comforting. It makes us feel good. And it turns out that hugging is proven to make us healthier and happier. (Healthline Info)

I’m a hugger! are you? In Virtual Worlds they are many ways to hug: there is the friendly hug, a jump in your arms hug, a pounce on you and lay you out on the ground hug, and the sensual hug for lovers. Some folks shy away from hugs but if they knew how they help relieve stress and boost your heart health, wouldn’t more give and accept the hug?

The reason hugs feel so good has to do with our sense of touch. According to scientists, it’s an extremely important sense which allows us not only to physically explore the world around us, but also to communicate with others by creating and maintaining social bonds. But… I contemplate this… since we really don’t feel the touch of another human in Virtual Worlds, are we still receiving the same benefits that hugging and touch give to us in the Real Life world?

According to Medicinet – “Oxytocin: It is the love hormone that relieves stress and boosts heart health. It also helps in losing weight, lowers blood pressure, fights diseases, increases libido, reduces stress, and gives us a feeling of comfort. A 10-second hug helps the body fight infections, eases depression, and lessens tiredness.” Just what we need in Virtual Worlds, a higher libido LOL

Anyway I will close this blog post saying that I love a hug, vw or rl… if you see me HUG me, a hug touches the soul. As Mimi said ” “Laughter with those that understand us is music for the soul. A hug at the right moment and a kind shoulder to lean on, Is the sprinkle of magic that keeps us walking towards hope.” – Mimi Novic

Step in Sunbeams and Give someone a HUG today!


Today is the 5th day of the 5th month… 5, is a prime number. In radio communication, the term ” Five by Five” is used to indicate perfect signal strength and clarity. “Give me five” is a common phrase used preceding a ‘High Five”. The numerology number 5 is a number that expresses its sense of personal freedom. 5 is sensual, sensing life and its various intensities and vibrations as it flows through 5’s essence. 5 experiences by observing and feeling and interacting with full focus. A person with a 5 in a prominent position generally is comfortable interacting with others.

 Number 5 represents a composite energy containing the ideas of:

  • Expression of Personal Freedom
  • Sensuality
  • Curiosity
  • Wit
  • Adventure

I think I like the number 5!

May is a month of spring in the Northern Hemisphere and autumn in the Southern Hemisphere. May acts as the bridge between spring and summer, hinting at warmer weather for those still stuck in spring’s grasp, while heating things up for those already well on their way. April showers bring May flowers, new loves and beautiful weather.  The Sun is warming, the birds are chirping, the flowers are blooming, and the garden is growing.

The month of May was named for the Greek goddess Maia. She was the goddess of fertility. The Romans had a similar goddess named Bona Dea. In spring, ones’ libido seems to come alive with the new season. May’s birth flowers are the Hawthorn and the Lily-of-the-Valley. The hawthorn means hope, while the lily-of-the-valley symbolizes sweetness or the return of happiness.

I think I like the month of May!

May you find hope and happiness in all that you do each and every day of MAY!!!

Step in Sunbeams

Sunbeam ♥

Stepping BACK Again

Well once again I found myself having to step back from Virtual World fun. Maybe I dove in way too deep, which is my nature, and here almost 10 months later I found myself needing to step back.

In Second Life, the Wild West role play really took a lot of time out of my week, planning for the lessons for the Little Red School two mornings a week two hours long. I also tried to join in the evening Campfire gatherings and tried not to miss the OOC Thursday night dances. And I also tried to attend the Saturday evening Cherokee gathering in our little town of Bear River. After almost a year there I still feel like a stranger. Then there is my Indian maiden/warrior role play. Monday Pow Wows, Wednesday combat training with our friendly tribe brothers, the Osage, Friday combat with the Outlaws and then Sunday morning Storytelling Hour (which I lead) and which took extra time for me to prepare to make sure the topic and stories were interesting and well presented. AND then there is returning to OpenSim and my beloved AAcme City trying to restore it to a more completed and workable city. It is a HUGE project. Plus I started to take a class to learn how to do mesh.

I’ve been doing all of the above trying to escape my Real Life role: being a caretaker for a terminal ill advanced stage IV Cancer patient. It’s taken it’s toll on me watching my husband decline in health and weight and mental capacities (mostly due to the high dosage of morphine he’s given) while still wanting to be a Mother and friend to my grown children, one whom recently took the hardest step of her life, finally leaving an abusive husband and moving half way across the country to get away from him with her four children. I miss her and my Grandchildren so much.

It’s all become so overwhelming to me. I realize my first and top priority is taking care of my husband, still I yearn to jump into that fantasy world of beautiful people and where one can fly and do the impossible.

There is one thing I forgot about in Virtual Worlds in my eagerness to return. The drama, the relationships to juggle and the many personalities one must deal with. Sometimes drama happens to you and you don’t even realize it until you are knee deep in yuck! Sometimes your feelings get away from you and you feel your heart begin to beat to a different drummer. Sometimes you feel so alone and wonder why others seem to be so accepted and loved and always part of the ‘in crowd’ while you watch from the sidelines. Sometimes you feel used and sought after not for your heart but for your abilities. Of course we still are real people with real feelings behind the facade of a beautiful avatar but you wish to think “this is a different fun life”, while you mask your private despair. Self doubt sets in whether it’s reality or virtual. You can not fly away from being a human!

Running Wild Again

Finally, the pain has gone back into it’s hiding place, although every once in a while if I move wrong or twist wrong it rears it’s ugly head and shouts at me! I’m shouting back now and moving on. Smiles.

It’s a strange feeling not to go on-line daily and interact with your friends and foes. Especially when it’s what you do daily and have for the last eight months, almost every morning without a pause. You lie there wondering who is planning what, who is missing you, who hasn’t even noticed you’ve been gone? You want so badly to log in and shout “Here I am!! See me!!”. You’re nervous about going back like you’re now a stranger to everyone or you don’t know what to say or do when you run into another. It’s like you’re a newbie all over again.

You ponder your character and wonder if you are playing the correct role for you. Are you helping others enjoy the second life they have carved out for themselves? Is it worth the time and energy you put into your character and the planning and execution of your plans? Are you spending too much real life cash on clothes and looks for your character? Are you spending too little? Where will you be say six months from now, one year from now? So much to think about while lying on your back pondering your second life!

I want to run wild again! I want to enjoy my second life! I want to enjoy my friends! I want to be part of the ‘in-crowd’! Things change so quickly in second life. Once I read that four hours of second life time equals a full day of real life time. So it’s like I’ve been away for four plus months, not three weeks. I got a lot of living to make up for! Let’s do this… see ya on the inside!

Pain in the back…

Why, oh why do we do such silly things? At my age I should of known better. It was a stupid stupid thing to do! I feel like it will never heal and I am getting so depressed from not being able to escape to my fun, no harm can find me virtual worlds. I miss my friends. Thank goodness a few have my rl phone number and have called to lift my spirits and see how I am doing. Although it’s only been a couple weeks in real life time, in a virtual life that it’s like a few months time have passed. The gears of time continue to move, even if I do not.

The measurement of time began with the invention of sundials in ancient Egypt,  some time prior to 1500 B.C.

Pain is a distressing feeling often caused by intense or damaging stimuli…   pain is described as “an unpleasant sensory and emotional experience associated with, or resembling that associated with, actual or potential tissue damage. It is a major symptom in many medical conditions, and can interfere with a person’s quality of life and general functioning. I have been ‘in pain’ for the last couple of weeks.

For some reason I thought I was Superwoman and lifted up my insanely heavy large maple desk. I was rearranging my living room and the second I lifted my desk I felt a muscle in my back stretch and pop… ouch!! Still I continued to work and then later that evening sat at my new turned desk for hours enjoying my Virtual life. The next day, I couldn’t get out of bed. UGH

I plan to be much more careful in the future. I truly do. Pain is NO fun! Please be careful my friends. It only takes a second to knock you out of the game! (pun intended)


“Songs express who we are and how we feel, they bring us closer to others, they keep us company when we are alone. They articulate our beliefs and values, and they bear witness to our lives. Songs weave tales of our joys and sorrows, they reveal our innermost secrets, and they express our hopes and disappointments, our fears and triumphs. They are our musical diaries, our life stories. They are the sounds of our personal development”.

NEW year new goals. One new year’s resolution was to have more music in my life! I tried to visit youtube, or iHeart or my vid stream on Facebook and listen to new and old songs each morning! As I drink my coffee and consider the day and reflect on yesterday the music soothes my soul. I don’t know about you but I have always loved music! I was in the church choir as a youth and even though I don’t think my voice was that of a singer I belted out the songs with all my heart.

As I got older vinyl records became my obsession. I had one of the those little portable suitcase looking record player and would carry it around with me to my friends houses. I recalled my neighbor and close girlfriend who lived across the street from me, we once listened to a new Elvis song over and over and over and over and over and over and over again. Laughing at the memory.

My mother use to stop by the record store on her way home from work sometimes and pick up a bundle of 45’s that were on the sale rack and bring them home to me. Some were very weird songs! But sometimes, I would discover a Song that touched my heart and soul and to this day I still hear the tune play in my head. One was called the Trumpeter’s Prayer… an instrumental that a wild teenager like me would never buy on her own.

As I got older and the internet came out I joined many music sites. Some were very erotic where we would talk to other members through song titles. Mmmmmmmmmmmm. Then I found Second Life where music and dancing was the highpoint of my second life. Live concerts from so many genres to choose from. Getting to know these folks from around the world and learn of their musical talents. Dj’s who played a variety of music while our avatars bantered and danced and had the time of our life.

With Music!

Summertime Dance

Music, let it carry to you to new places. Let it fill up your heart and soar your soul. Some say music is therapy that perhaps provide a small window into what makes it so special and magical! Listen to the music as you dance your way through this journey we call our life. “Where words fail, music speaks.”.


My fairy soul stands in the middle of an old western stone cabin ready to fly to the OOC party to dance and laugh with her many friends, old and new, all virtual. It feels so real. I feel so alive when inside this pixelated world and I forget all about my real life world problems: Covid 19, Our divisive America, a husband with an incurable Cancer disease chipping away at his life: if only for a few hours.

Sometimes I feel guilty that I escape my first life, to live a second life, other times I feel elated to be able to maneuver through a virtual maze with ease and grace. Sometimes I don’t want to leave my safe virtual world where no physical harm can touch me, where everyone is beautiful to look at, where I can fly. Other times I scold myself for having fun while my husband lies on his couch withering away.

In this pixelated world I have many friends. In my real world I have a few close friends. But since ‘social distancing’ I have not seen my close friends. In my pixelated world I hug and kiss my many friends without a thought. I do know that behind each avatar there is a ‘real’ person escaping their own life issues or perhaps they are just enjoying playing dress up and have no issues. I can’t really say.

I do know this, without my pixelated world to immerse myself in, I would likely fall into a deep depression and not make up my bed in the morning. I wouldn’t do my chores or be the gentle caretaker I must be each day for my husband. So I will dive into this pixelated world once again today fully immersing my heart and soul in a make believe world where life is beautiful and I take a deep breath of life in my virtual fantasy.